Interlude. (Response to my Last Email)

Before I start to meander aimlessly into the realm of my own existence, I would to address one particular issue from my last email. First, I have received some feedback from my last email that surprised me. It surprised me a bit because either because the people I talked to thought I sounded very depressed or very upset. On the contrary, I think what I was trying to say in my last email is that, yes, there are issues. Yes, I am upset. But these are more reflective of the fact that all these issues and conflicts in my life are starting to resolve themselves. I think the fact I talked about being "swept away" and unprepared for these issues coming full circle is the part that is probably misinterpreted as being dragged into the depths of melancholy. Right now, while there are things that are constantly on my mind (family, graduate plans/working...), that does not mean that I am constantly upset/depressed. It just means that I am very sensitive to what's happening around me, more perceptive because, like I said, there are all these issues that are coming to the forefront. The "downtime" after a conflict, if there is any, is relatively short, because I just feel like I'm growing up and maturing, dealing with things I haven't in the past. In fact, this particular email is supposed to show that yes, I am also having fun and enjoying myself. Actually, if you read the prologue to this post on my blog, you'll realize that the tone behind it is far from morose. That is why the two titles were linked together--I just never had time to write the second part in time to post with my last email. I guess it wasn't "Fair and Balanced"....Either way, try to think of my current state as being nervous, anxious, and a bit scared of what's to come, not because I feel like my life's going to end, but rather, it's about to begin.