Rant.

Sometimes I ask myself, "What's wrong with me," why can't I get along with certain people? I wonder about the rational explanations as to why, for instance, some people are so opposed to who I am as a person that they just can't stand that I'm not "cool", that I actually have something to stand for, that I do not wither under (peer) pressure, and that I can actually refuse to do something if I don't want to do it. What is it about people--who reward such "herd mentality"--that the apex of one's existence is not to be independent, but to be socially accepted (on a very shallow level). Maybe it's a basic human ideal and maybe I'm totally clueless, but today, after having a somewhat uncomfortable conversation about a now ex-friend, I realized that someone who I thought cherished and respected my individuality, really, in the end, just implied that the reason I didn't get along with the so-called friend was because we were "from two different worlds", me being from the "not-so-cool" one.

Maybe it's all alien to me. Maybe I was just born with a stick up my ass. But never have I felt so upset for doing and being who I am, standing up for myself, by myself.